Words floating in my head

It is a little strange standing where i am, time that elusive ever present companion,
has been whispering coded messages to me revealing always a little at a -time that today is really all there is. That my now is the ony thing really gauranteed and that i should celebrate that and do the best that i can with it. What exactly i am supposed to do i do not know... that i guess is the coded part. I believe somewhere inside me i know the answer but i have not learned to listen to myself that well- yet.
Standing here i know my thesis is important, that within this study i am developing my discourse, my purpose through architecture becasue i don't believe we could possibly have one purpose! The one i intend to fulfill through buildings lies here...somewhere; this is the start. That gives me some comfort to know this journey means something, but this journey through school has also kept me really busy, I have not had time to discover other parts of me. My heart and spirit seem different my mind has been slow to catch up. Somewhere along the last 5 years i changed over and over and over again and i could not always keep up, but suddenly standing here things seem to be gaining clarity a little at a time.

I feel like the start of a new year means the begining of a new time...as corny as that sounds. I feel like i am getting another chance to get to know myself, learn my heart and follow it. Kinda scary, mostly exhilarating!...for now at least.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME!